1.How to enjoy eating lunch alone
don't be fooled by the title of #1. I am not going to explain how to do this. Actually quite the opposite...I'm asking you..BEGGING you to give me tips on how to enjoy this awkward silent and absolutely too-short hour in the middle of my workday.
right now my routine is..
get in my car
drive to whatever fast food restaurant i can handle that day
drive to a park
eat in my car...listen to music..stare blankly out the window
continue sitting..in silence..staring...
drive back to work ( or happy hour at sonic..one of my worst habits)
sit at my desk. stare blankly at the screen for another 4 hours.
good grief that makes me sad. Im not much of a sit-and-do-nothing kinda gal. I need to be busy..constantly. hate boredom. hate monotony ..
SO- if anyone has any suggestions PLEEEASE PLEASE share!
Today I did clean out my car during my lunch break..this was slightly satisfying.
2. What in the world..
am I doing with my life?? My life right now does not reflect me at all. I work in a coorporate environment where I do ..well...not much away from my computer..I spend most of my time during the week either at work or watching tv or eating...or sleeping ..
its just ..sad and frustrating. I need some sort of creative outlet..but I can't seem to get into things like knitting or reading anymore. Honestly, what I think I need is ..singing . yes. choir. voice lessons. rehearsals, sectionals, performances, tours..I miss it. like craazy..it gave me a release, a feeling of self-worth to be a part of something- and the music made me happy in my heart:) Unfortuntaely i feel like i have lost access to that world here in lovely NWA. Maybe I should find a community choir..but I really...have never heard of one. I could always start one..anyone interested;)
or maybe a jazz band. I still like that idea
Anyway! I am very thankful for my job. its not difficult, its a great environment, great people, it pays well..its just not me. obviously;)
I miss these guys!