Capturing the little things

Thank you, Arkansas

2011-10-19T09:17:00.001-05:00

For keeping all us Arkansan's on our toes! Sunday it was 85 degrees outside...this mornin, it was 30. I sorta LOVE it! Also, E wore his coat today for the first time since last winter, and he found his ipod in his jacket pocket.....he's been looking for that all year! Also, I had Chic-Fil-A for breakfast. and am now drinking pumpkin spice tea...So far, today is a good Wednesday!

Except I forgot my phone at home.....therefore, no dinner pics. sadness

But i can tell you that dinner was stinkin' good. Remember that pasta I mentioned yesterday? well, we had that + fried tofu and broccoli (yes, I fried the broccoli. So?) ..more on that later. You know. when i have pictures..

in other news, I have RE-discovered pinterest. and it's amazing!! unfortunately, now i want to redo my whole house, buy a new wardrobe, etc, etc..the downfall of pinterest for many, i assume.

I do plan on getting my hands on this rug eventually.. it's just begging to go in my sunroom.

I can't stop staring at it ...

well, that's it for now...see you soon!

We didn't cook much this weekend..

2011-10-18T10:43:00.000-05:00

This weekend we did many things. Cooking was not a big part of those many things....

Remember how excited I was about taco salad on Friday? I went to the store right after work, got everything we needed, made sure the kitchen was clean so we could start-a cookin' when E got home....and then we ended up getting pizza with a friend. Oops. Sorry beautiful, ripe, avocado! (don't worry, it lasted until last night!)

So that was friday.

Saturday, I went to the craft fair with a few friends from work - GREAT fun! Pics to follow. Lunch consisted of a teeny tiny $4 hamburger. mmm.....yuck

We did grill that night, that is..E grilled.

So that's home cooked meal #1 in 2 days - not cool, Holders.

E grilled up some rockin' chicken that he marinated in A1, worchestire, and...vegetable broth(?), rosemary potatoes, and the rest of our brussels sprouts...which sadly turned out a little too chewy.

But that's ok:)

They still look pretty :)

Let's see.. Sunday, I woke up to bacon and french toast. Because my husband loves me.

Then we had an amazing dinner ( just a reminder, on Sundays thats lunch, yall) which consisted of TONS of chicken, roasted potatoes, purple hull peas, cornbread, macaroni and cheese, fresh peppers, and FRIED SQUASH. so good. I love sunday's at my parents house. Did I mention my Mamma's fried squash is ridiculously good?

SO good, y'all......

If you're wondering how she makes them, I'm pretty sure all she does is cut them into thick steak fry-like sticks, coats them in cornmeal, a little flour, salt and pepper, and then fries them in a cast iron pan. it's possible that she uses crisco to do this. Just like she makes fried okra. You think the woman would be much larger......

not so much.

My parents are so stinkin' cute. This is them after i said "act like you like each other!"

Sunday night......we went down the street for sushi. Geez! Fail.

We did enjoy some lovely tea that morning before lunch at one of our favorite coffee shops,

Iron Horse Coffee Company

I had irish breakfast - E Had sushi house green..and then he bought me a whole box of pumpkin spice! <3

and that night we had a lovely chat by the fire pit ( did i just say lovely chat? wow.)

......and then we went out and bought fancy pasta. Because I had had a sample of {overpriced} homemade pasta at the craft fair and suddenly REALLY wanted some. It was amazing...but seriously, Cassie?? whatever. it was worth it.

..and that brings us to Monday night. Finally, the taco's!!

There's not much of a recipe for taco's. I mean taco's are taco's. right? Well just for fun, and for future reference for myself...here's what we piled into our taco salad bowls (which are amazing!)

*Ground beef seasoned to perfection by Mr Holder with who knows what...

*1/2 onion, 3 cloves chopped garlic,1 whole bell pepper, - all sauteed - in that order, of course

*black beans

*Tomato

*sliced avocado

*chopped cilantro

*lime

*cheeeese

*sour cream

*spinach

and with that we shared a banana pepper that we grew in our garden. Literally the only one all year...darn heat.

Oooh yeah. I gotta start taking pictures with my real camera instead of my phone....lazy.

we <3 taco's!

and we love these taco shells-

They're so darn good its stupid!

And now...my super awesome craft fair finds!!! Don't be jealous..

Find #1 - LOVE this sign for Christmas. Honestly, I'd like to put it up now...but someone won't let me:P

Finds # 2,3 & 4. The scarf is vintage and only cost me a dollar - the sweet little wooden guy was in a $4 "goodie bag" which consisted of a black seal...and a bunch of creepy animal-type things made of seashells....which i threw away because they freaked me out. and that super cool zebra - well- do i need to explain? he's adorable. hand made- only $11( fyi -he's wooden- not stuffed. ) I love my new friends:)

#5. i mean, come on! It's a vintage suitcase ( complete with Hawaii sticker on the handle) with a lovely saying....oh, and also. it's a table. yes those legs are attached. I may paint them, but how unique! Only $35.

And then there was this guy. sweetest little sunglass, visor wearin' pup ever. He belonged to this super cool army vet who now makes and sells..you guessed it- doggy sunglasses and visors. we saw SO many dogs with these on halfway through the day. it was awesome

So far, tonight's menu consists of that late-night pasta (garlic, parsley fettucini) most likely topped only with butter and olive oil because that's all it needs, maybe some garlic bread, and a vegetable. I'm thinking broccoli...but you never know!

Happy Tuesday!

Why food? (and some sexy chicken)

2011-10-14T10:47:00.000-05:00

Well, that's an easy question!

E and I love to cook together. We always have - I know- we're awesome!

One of the first dates we had involved "cooking" in his tiny campus apartment ( the quotations are there because, well, the meal was Pad Thai from a box...but we tweaked it, of course!). Sure, we love eating out just as much as the next person, but we also really love spending our evenings together in the kitchen. and I love food. period. So, there you have it.

Thankfully our meals we make together these days have evolved from boxed thai, although that is still one of our favorite lazy night meals... Over the years we've picked up on each others strengths and weaknesses in the kitchen. For example...Any super complicated, precise, measure-heavy dish - all him. I'm more of the haphazard, throw in a little of this, and a chunk of that and see what happens kinda gal. 60% of the time..it works EVERY time....

that doesn't make any sense.

SO - long answer short- food make sense because I, we, love it. A LOT. Yep.

Side note: ( I had to have one..) The thing about our dinner plans..is that they're made early. Sometimes it's first thing in the morning, sometimes its sometime earlier in the week. I have the habit of going nuts brainstorming for thursday night's meal before we've even gotten to lunch on monday. which is great- less planning later....except the thing about those dinner plans ... is that they change with our mood. A lot..

thats why I got a call last night from E ...who went out to get chicken. Sadly his quest for chicken was blinded by an array of other possibilities...namely pork chops... pork chops? Such a guy..

Luckily for me he came home with chicken in hand..and an avocado...because he loves me :)

So, dinner. here's the run down

Thursday: Roasted Butternut Squash and Sexy (yes, sexy) Chicken

Let's start with the fun part. My all-time favorite side dish, and a sure sign that it's fall around these parts - the butternut squash. I need more. Now.

Roasted Butternut Squash (adapted from an array of other recipe's..but mostly my own noggin)

Ingredients

-1 medium/large butternut squash - peeled and cubed
( we only use the skinny part for roasting, the thick part we either cut in half and cook like a sweet potato or turn int soup..tmi?)

-Roughly 2 TBS rosemary (we used dried. because that what we had)

-1 tbs autumn spice (or paprika, allspice, whatever sounds autumn-y to you. We found our "autumn spice" in a spice shop in colorado. Its' so good, I'm only allowed to use it during fall - details to follow)

-3 cloves of garlic - minced

-Enough extra virgin olive oil to coat

-Salt and pepper

Instructions

*Preheat oven to 400

*Add all ingredients to a bowl and toss to coat

*Spread squash out evenly on baking sheet

*Roast squash for 45 min. to an hour (turning occasionally) until crispy

Seriously....

These little babies are so STINKIN good. I told you, I was on a roasting kick this week.

Alright, sexy chicken. I dont know what it is about chicken cooked in broth like this. but it is seriously sexy. That's really all I have to say. and that sauce? It's also pretty darn good on the squash. and by itself...really.

Sexy Chicken

Ingredients

-1 Chicken Breast ( or however many you want to cook. we always try to split our protein..portion control!)

-2 + cups vegetable broth

-3 cloves garlic, sliced

-Autumn Seasoning (yep)

-Salt and Pepper

-2 TBS butter

Instructions

*Add vegetable broth to a pot and season with lots of pepper, autumn spice and garlic -heat until boiling

*Add the chicken breast to broth - reduce heat to medium-high (add extra broth as neeeded to cover chicken)

*"boil" chicken until fully cooked.

* heat skillet with 2 tbs butter

*remove chicken from liquid and add to hot pan

*turn heat up on liquid until a slight bubbly-foam is created on top (basically, you're reducing it into a sauce)
Like this!
* gradually begin to ladle the liquid over chicken

*cook chicken covered with liquid about 5 minutes

*Serve that sexy chicken!

Oh, and for anyone curious- this is the spice mix we use. the ingredients are at the bottom. super simple. super awesome.

The final result...oh, thats a terrible picture...c'mon Iphone. It was dark pretty dark, but such a lovely night for dinner on the patio.

..and then my amazing husband made milkshakes for dinner, and the portion control is thrown out the window!
mmm.....

There you have it! Thursday night dinner at the Holder hut. Tonight our plan is chorizo taco salad ..but you never know. .

Ahem.....let's talk about food

2011-10-13T11:23:00.000-05:00

I know. I know- its time for my monthly post. whatever, Cassie..why do you bother?

Well..

I was thinking this morning about how sad it is that I start thinking about dinner around 9:00am... and so instead of trying to find something interesting to say about my every day life on my blog ( which obviously is a little difficult.),I'm going to start using this website as a dinner log. Partially to share any crazy or crazy-good concoctions that E and I try or create, and also so that I can keep track of the dinners we make.

The best part is, I'm constantly taking pictures of my food anyway...so that part is taken care of!

I plan on doing this every day that we cook during the week ( stop laughing) but since today is thursday, I'll start with a run down of this weeks meals so far. NOT ALL posts will be 5millionparagraphslong.....promise.

Sunday: Roasted Broccoli and pasta what I like to call Stupid-Good sauce.

Last sunday we had the rare task of making our own lunch. Typically sunday lunch is at my parents house, and it is always amazing. ALWAYS. however, this sunday we were on our own. So, we resisted the urge to go out for lunch and made THE. BEST. PASTA SAUCE. EVER.

I'm not kidding.

Stupid-good sauce
The sauce is LITERALLY a large can of whole tomatoes, one onion - halved- and BUTTER. Yes, butter. that is it. and it is miraculous

We also finally made roasted broccoli. I don't know why this never occurred to me before, we make broccoli at least once a week but have never roasted it. Holy. Cow. SO amazing..

Both Recipe's Found Here - my new favorite cooking blog

( seriously, have you checked out this blog? I love her.)

Here is the finished product. Complete with sweet tea, because it isn't sunday dinner (which means lunch, southern-speak) without sweet tea!

Oh, and that onion you throw in the sauce? sure, you take it out at the end, but DON'T throw it away! It's totally re-useable. we used it the next day....you'll see.

Monday: Roasted Brussels Sprouts and E's Shepherds Pie.

Brussels sprouts are back in season, and I am SO happy about this! we'll probably have them again this week...different recipe of course.

Roasted Brussels Sprouts

Ingredients:
as many brussels sprouts as you want
olive oil
salt and pepper.

Instructions
These are so easy its ridiculous. Just cut the cute little cabbages in half, drizzle with olive oil and sprinkle with salt and LOTS of pepper. Roast them at 425 for 12-ish minutes on each side. Best thing ever.

I think roasted vegetables are my new happy food. Srsly.

E's Shepherds Pie
* I had to email him to get the recipe. ALL him, guys..all him. I'm so lucky. I did have to make a few notes-for clarification- they're italicized.

This was totally a non-recipe, whatever we had on hand, shepherds pie. And i wouldn't have it any other way.

Ingredients:
1lb of lean ground beef
1 yellow onion (Remember that onion i said NOT to throw away? oh yeah...)
3 cloves garlic
Paprika
Salt
5-6 red potatoes
½ stick of butter
1 cup (?) milk
Garlic salt
Bam powder (?) ( he means Emeril's essence..or what we like to call, essence from the spice weasel. get it?)
2 cups chick or veg broth
1 cup red wine ( we used pinot noir, BC we had it..)
1 cup each of moneray and chedder

Instructions
*Boil potatoes until soft, mash and add butter, milk, and spices
*Sear ground beef and make space in middle of pan to cook chopped onion till translucent and then add garlic. cook until soft. Mix beef and veggies together till meat is dark brown and pan has a good layer of sticky stuff. (LOL! Sticky stuff?? well, okay..)
*Move beef mix to 9”x9” casserole pan and turn stove heat to high. When the pan is just about to start smoking add broth and wine and cook till reduced by ½-1/4 volume then poor over beef.
*Layer potatoes on top of beef and cover with aprox. 2 cups of cheese
*Bake at 375 for 15-20 min.
*I think that’ll be good enough. ( I had to leave that in there..he's so cute) "

here's the finished product! I have no idea how to make shepherds pie look as good as it tastes....

Tuesday: My Mamma's Vegetable Soup and Pumpkin Cornbread.

I'm hesitant to share this recipe...because it is, after all, a family recipe. But that being said, it is a FAMILY recipe. Therefore theres not much of an actual "recipe" to go along with it..so i'll give you the basic run down..

Mamma's Vegetable soup

Ingredients
-about a half a cup each of frozen butter beans, peas ( we use purple hull), and Okra
-1/2 -1 lb of ground beef
-enough (yes, enough) potatoes, diced ( I used 6 red potatoes because thats what we have. my Mamma usually uses baking potatoes which is just as good..probably better).
-1 large can of tomatoes, doesn't really matter how they're cute ( I used diced, BC that's what E bought)
-1 can creamed corn.
-vegetable broth as needed ( my ONLY tweak-sorry Mamma........)

Instructions( straight from my mamma..told you- not much of a recipe! hehe)
*Cook beans and peas in vegetable broth for 15 minutes
*Add other ingredients except corn, crumble meat as you add it, and cook 20 minutes
( I added a little more vegetable broth at this point, and cooked it for about 10 minutes longer to get the right consistency)
*Add corn and cook 10 minutes longer.

really, you could cook this in a crock pot on low for a while and it'd still be amazing! Sadly, i don't have a picture of this soup..but if you're going to make it, just know that its not very..soupy. its a very thick, vegetable-y soup. and its amazing. trust me.

Pumpkin Cornbread

well. E made these. and he found the recipe here.... it was SUPER good (side note, i must try that pumpkin chili..)! He's planning on making a sweeter rendition for a bake sale soon. I'll share that recipe when it happens.

And finally, the plan for tonight ( oh, tonight..so excited about tonight..)

"Boiled" chicken with butter and autumn spices with..ROASTED BUTTER NUT SQUASH!!!!
( yeah, I just "yelled" that. that's how excited I am. )

*disclaimer...we don't literally boil the chicken. Ok, we do, but not like you think. it's cut into small pieces and cooked in seasoned broth. We got the idea from cooking fondue and it REALLY is amazing. I'll have more details tomorrow.

well, that was fun!

(another) Side note: our favorite couple came to visit us last weekend and it was THE BEST WEEKEND EVER! Here's a happy toast to send off my first (hopefully not lat) food-heavy post!

and, of course, a puppy picture for good measure.

trying to be a lap dog.. he's so cute its not even fair.

well, in the words of my favorite chef Mr Alton Brown (yes. I'm that kind of nerd), I bid you all good eats!

gah...sorry!

2011-08-04T11:21:00.000-05:00

Ok. so, apparently I have somehow dislocated my..ribhead? making it incredibly painful to type. sit. lay down. recline. Its incredibly NOT cool! Ive even had a co-worker ( who just happens to be an incredible massage therapist) fix it- TWICE- and it just keeps goin' back.. Anyhoo- so so so so sorry about leaving my second post hangin' hopefully next week i will be back with a vengeance..and with a post or two about refinishing our dining room table! ( assuming i can even work on it...sigh..) In the meantime, have a lovely thursday, and an INCREDIBLE weekend!

Well, shoot

2011-08-01T10:06:00.000-05:00

I have yet to share pt two of my list! one crazy weekend plus one majorly screwed up back and shoulder have prevented me from typin it up....hopefully it will come tomorrow! in the meantime, he's a pic of me an mah sweet pup chillin in the pool on Saturday!

My Ten Things.

2011-07-28T10:59:00.000-05:00

This post is inspired by the lovely Annie over at Turning Pages, which was inspired by another of my favorites, C. Jane. Such a fantastic idea, I cannot pass it up. They both shared ten things that make their life more enjoyable, more simplified, more in-control. What a great idea! I am sure we all have these things, but really stopping to think about it, to recognize these things, and to really internalize them so that they're conscious joys, turn them into a reliable source of happiness. How cool. Seriously.

So, without further ramblings, Here is part 1 my list. ( Following suit, and due to lack of posting time, part 2 will come tomorrow!)

My favorite tea {honey ginseng} at one of my favorite places

1. My daily tea break. I am not a coffee drinker by nature. Don't get me wrong, I love coffee, but if I don't drink it regularly, I crash. I crash hard. Tea, on the other hand, is something that I can rely on to do good by me. I even carry a few bags with me everywhere I go, just in case.
Every day, I find a minute or two, sit in quiet, drink my tea, and contemplate my day, have a quiet conversation with God, or just think about nothing. It gives me fantastic perspective and piece of mind.

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{The beginnings of our garden the day we planted it- SO TINY!}

2. Watering my garden. I love the responsibility of keeping our vegetable garden alive and well. It's one of the few "home owner chores" that I haven't really tired of yet. I love going out into the cool morning every morning to water them, and watering them again as soon as I get home. Sometimes, the dogs even help :)

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{Making fondu for the parents, circa 2007}

3. Planning and Cooking Dinner. I love dinner ( or supper, as it's referred to in my family). It's my favorite part of the day, I think. And I love cooking with E. Sometimes I get to work in the morning and immediately start thinking about what we can cook for dinner. And then the emails start - recipe swapping- ideas - discussions over what we have in the fridge, what we'd need to buy, etc, etc..these can go on all day - oh the anticipation! Over our two years of marriage, E and I have learned to work so well together when we cook-every movement throughout the kitchen is well-choreographed. We've learned each others strengths and weaknesses in the kitchen, and we work with it.

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{thats a LOT of groceries! (via apartment therapy)}

4. Grocery Shopping. What? Is that weird? ( am so food oriented..) Goodness, I LOVE grocery shopping! And I don't just mean picking up a few things, I mean hardcore-groceries for a week- a list a mile long- shopping. I love the feeling of heading to the store with an empty fridge and pantry, and coming home with car full of groceries to fill it up with! Every time I fill my fridge, I remember how blessed we are that we are able to do this every now and then. (we're actually going on a big grocery run this weekend- I've already got the list started!)

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{on the trail in our neighborhood- it goes all around town!}

5. Daily Walks. This is not something we're awesome at, especially when its still 100 degrees at 8:00, but we have been trying to get into the habit of eating dinner AT the table (the couch is our go-to dinner spot..hopefully one day it will be the back yard instead) and then after we clean up from dinner, we leash up the dogs and go for a walk. We did this quite a bit when we lived in the apartments, but now that we have a back yard, we tend to slack off a bit.. but I think it's so important to get the dogs out of their natural habitat once and a while! They love it, and we love getting to know our neighborhood a bit better.

Stay tuned for Pt 2!

I would like to have this..please

2011-07-27T09:20:00.000-05:00

Ok, so this may make me the biggest dork EVER. But I would proudly wear this shirt if it was ever mine to wear. Anyone want to buy it for me? anybody? anybody? well, I suppose I will wait for Christmas-time....

I also wouldn't mind this one. It's just too cute.

Gah, NPR. What you do to me...

In other news..um..OH!

I rescued a bunny on Friday! He ran into our back yard..which is not a good place for tiny animals when the giant beasts are out. SO i just had to rescue him from the wrath of my Aussies.

Well, I brought him inside whilst I made sure he was all healthy, and not abandoned ( super healthy! just lost) and then returned him safely to his natural habitat..our front yard. Thankfully, i saw his mother wandering around later that evening, so all is well in the bunny world!

I didn't get many great pictures of him, but this one definitely shows his teeny-ness!

I wish I could've kept him! but I know that wouldn't have been good for him, or my marriage (E has a thing about rabbits as pets...bad roommate experience..) Instead I will just hope to see him occasionally hop around our neighborhood ( We live in an old neighborhood, which = lots of pretty trees, and LOTS of bunnies!).

Have a lovely, lovely wednesday!

Good Morning!

2011-07-25T11:10:00.000-05:00

Today is a bit dreary, but I don't mind. it at least LOOKS cooler outside, even if it isn't..

I just wanted to pop in and share the happiest little blog ever with you. seriously, its lovely.

I think this one is my favorite- so far.

This is one of my favorite things ever.

And here are a few little things that made me super happy this weekend:

Watching the sunset from our hammock in the backyard

Farmers market finds (which immediately became an incredible omelette )

and finally, the brief occasions when my hair pretends to be curly

what are some of the little things that make you super happy?

oh, fall...( yes, I know it's July)

2011-07-22T10:37:00.002-05:00

It's almost August. And that means one thing..its no where NEAR the fall season in Arkansas. It's so. hot. not that I mind the heat... I really don't. I just have a major crush on fall. I have this habit of pulling out ALL of my fall decorations ( yes, I have fall decorations ), the fall candles, the fall clothing( long sleeves and boots are just soo cozy) the fall recipes...what I wouldn't give for a killer chili or stew made by my talented husband right now. Typically, I do this prematurely. What I mean is, as soon as the air has any hint of fall in it, I'm ready for all of the above. And then, in true Arkansas fashion, its 100 degrees the next day. Oops. Did i also mention that fall is GORGEOUS? I don't have to tell you this. Fall colors are my favorite, browns, oranges, deep reds, so happy.

So, I suppose my point is - fall is my favorite- I miss fall. And the sad thing is, fall weather never lasts around here, its ALMOST as nonexistent as spring (what's that again?)! But does that ruin fall for me? No sir, it does not! Even if the winter weather rears its ugly head much too soon, I will still be enjoying my pumpkin pie candles, pumpkin spice latte's, and my leaf-adorned tablecloth.

Ok, confession time. Last Saturday, I HAD a pumpkin spice latte ( thank you, Kennedy Coffee) and was immediately thrust under the spell of fall. I bought a fall scented air freshener (incidentally, the combination of this and linen is a heavenly home scent combo!) and THEn...oh, and then...I went to Hobby lobby. JUST to get pillow inserts. And guess what was gracing the "holiday" section already? Yes. fall decorations! Thanksgiving decor! ( and a bit of christmas too!) Really, Hobby Lobby? Why are you torturing me? Jerk. Just kidding, I love you. Where else can I peruse aisles filled with Christmas Joy in OCTOBER (and I do, trust me).

My, what a ramble.

And now, some photos from probably my favorite Fall ever.

Sigh...so enchanting.

what's YOUR favorite season? ( yes, yes i did)

date day, date day!

2011-07-14T09:19:00.000-05:00

I'm so excited about our date day on Saturday, I just have to share our plans with you!

I'll start with a little background. We used to live in Fayetteville. We loved it. We thought we'd never leave. Cue rent that was too high, a MUCH better deal in Bentonville, and then a year later finding out "dream home"...in Bentonville. Needless to say, we didn't go back to our beloved Fayetteville.

So now, Fayetteville is more like a fun vacation day, instead of home. which is almost sad, but it makes it a little more exciting...I suppose

SO

here is our date day agenda!

First! we get to go to Hammontree's -which totally rocks our socks off..

Then.....HARRY POTTER at the AMC theatre, where we used to go constantly because of the amazing weekday prices ( plus last time we saw harry potter there, the line was about a fourth of the size as the one at Malco. Ha!)

After that, a mini grocery trip at ONF..because..well, why not?

THEN we get to go see the AMAZING Eldar Djangirov (Who I think looks a little like Shia LaBeouf..) at the WAC! He's such a cutie! and so ridiculously talented!

After that, dinner at our favorite Thai place where we had our first date nearly 6 years ago

here is my food art from our first date. I know, what the heck was I doing?

Sadly, i still do that when we go there...this is from 2008

Then, drinks at this place

And finally, a Benjamin Del Shreve Show at Georges!!

wow. that's a lot of info (and links - you're welcome.) So, i guess if you feel like stalking us on saturday, I just made that totally possible...creepy..

Anyway...sounds awesome doesn't it? I love date day.....sigh...

oh..and I wish I was back at this place today.....that'd be nice

Just some thoughts for this lovely, rainy day...

2011-07-13T11:39:00.000-05:00

Days like today typically bring on the expected sleepy-want to curl up in bed-drink some tea-feeling. They also tend to make me a bit more introspective than usual. Hm..mother nature, your ways are intriguing. Anyway, since the mood struck me (and these days, that is rare) I thought that I would type up a few thoughts to share with the world ( alright, with the very few people who keep track of my blog. thank you, few readers.You are appreciated )

Over the past couple of years, I have become very good at feeling sorry for myself. Sorry that I haven't found that "dream job". Sorry that I don't make enough money to eat out at fabulous restaurants on a whim, decorate my house with all the lovely things that catch my eye. Sorry that I am 26, and we are yet at "the right point" to start thinking about children. Sorry that It will probably take years to create the backyard oasis that I've been pining over ever since we signed that mortgage agreement. Sorry for so many things that I feel are out of my control.

Well, that's just silly. I know it's silly, you know it's silly. So why bother feeling BOTH sorry and silly? Lame, Cassie.

Due to my abnormally introspective demeanor today, I catch myself trying to feel sorry for all of these things all over again. However, I'm stopping myself with a little list of affirmations. *deep breath* here goes

I DO have a house. No, a home.

I have a job - no its not my dream job, but it's secure, I am learning from it, and it pays well enough.

And since we're on the subject of money, I am SO thankful for what little money we do earn. It's not excessive, an sometimes it doesn't feel like enough, but it is enough. For goodness sakes I'm only 26.

I have dreams, aspirations, goals. Enough said.

I have multiple artistic outlets that make me feel creative, and I love that.

Did I mention that I have a FANTASTIC, lovely, wonderful, handsome, sweet, and caring husband that will do anything for me, an teaches me daily the art of patience and acceptance? I do. and I love him.

I already have children. They're furry, and they like to chase birds. but they are my babies and I don't know what I would do without them.

I have a RIDICULOUSLY amazing family with tons of moms, dads, grandparents, sisters, and brothers, that bring so much joy into my life. I am blessed with such an amazing family! ( what I am trying to say is that my family rocks, and I TOTALLY lucked out with E's family!)

Most importantly I have faith. I have faith that God will always provide, that I can rely on Him to guide me, even though I can be SO stubborn. And for this reason, I love my life, I love what has been provided for me, and am so excited for what the future holds

THERE! I feel much better! don't you? Well, maybe if you make your own affirmation list, this dreary rainy day will brighten a bit. And if its not rainy where you are, well..neat. it's still a great idea:)

On another note, I am SUPER excited about our date day this Saturday! But...that's another show!

I leave you with some pics ( because who wants to read a blog post with no eye candy? )

we'll start with a few pictures from a lovely vineyard lunch in Napa ( that toally made me want to pack up, move to Cali, and start a vineyard!)

A sweet moment I was lucky enough to witness at our local farmers market. The little boy was so intrigued by the sax player, he walked right up to him. The Sax player obliged by playing a fun little song for the sweet boy. Made my day!

My little bug bein' lazy...

A big ol' bunny hoppin through our front yard. He was kid enough to pose for me.

Our wall of shelves are finally up in the bedroom!

My new little friend - found at a local antique store.

Have a happy Wednesday!

The best Pizza on earth!

2011-05-20T09:55:00.000-05:00

Ok. I can't really say that with authority. But E and I have eaten our fair share of pizza in NWA, and this. is. it.

You are probably thinking " what the HECK are you talkin' about??"

I'm talking about this.

SO TRUE

We discovered The Rail a few months ago - shortly after it opened. Its quirky, fun, the people who work/run the place are amazingly awesome, and the pizza is just. perfect. They even give you honey on the tables for the crust- FREE dessert anyone??

Our booth - appropriately called "table H" ...:)

SO last night after finding a second dead bird in our back yard (more on that later...so sad) we decided we needed to get out of the house, and have an impromptu date night. Such a good idea! But, when is date night a bad idea?

{Also, the gal that's been our waitress EVERY TIME (I think she spots us and chooses our table- we're that cool) actually remembered us last night even though we hadn't been there in over a month. Also she looks exactly like Gwenyth Paltrow. No kidding.}

THis is the Margherita olive oil, basil, tomato,WHOLE CLOVES OF ROASTED GARLIC, fresh mozzarella . Perfection.

E enjoying {conquering?} the Wedge salad. We always order this. And it always reminds us of Modern Family. "Are you kidding me??"

The super fun outdoor patio (sadly E's allergies + about 5 million people prevented us from enjoying it last night)

Beautiful downtown Rogers. Perfect end to our impromptu date night. There were even musicians playing in the pavilion. *happy sigh*

ahh, date night's. they're my favorite.

Well, hello there.

2011-05-19T10:33:00.000-05:00

Hi.

I have officially abandoned my little blog. Why? I have no idea. Perhaps it has to do with the fact that when I think to myself ' I should blog about this' I am no where near a computer, thus no blogging occurs and those thoughts and ideas..drift away. Another could be that I am easily discouraged with myself, and often think. "whats the point, no one will want to read about this" But I have decided to give it another go - if only for my own benefit. I love reading back through my blog posts and reading about past days and adventures that I've had, or reading a "rant" and thinking " wow , I'm so silly". It's fantastic perspective. Thus, my presence here. now. Well, here we go again.

I own a house. WOAH. what? It's true! late last month we took the big jump into adulthood and tied ourselves down to a lovely little house in a sweet neighborhood. We can access the city trails from our neighborhood, we have 6 trees ( yay, trees!) tons of birdies, and a huge back yard for the pups to play in. I should also mention that we are about a minute and a half away from a sonic. I haven't decided if this is a good thing or a bad. My bank account says bad. I've often thought of getting a part time job there, simply to support my addiction. Darn you Sonic...

Soon (as soon as we hook up our desktop so that i can upload pictures from good ol' Olly) I will update pictures of our little home, and share a bit of what we have done to it so far (mostly paint -LOTS of paint) and a few plans..what we will do next (there are MANY things we would like to do) It will be fun, just wait!

Here is a quick glimpse of it via iphone loveliness.

This is actually a little poscard that our bank gave us so that we can send them to loved ones, letting them know that we have moved! How sweet is that? terrible picture though..sorry

Lets move on to a little before and after

This is the master bedroom pre- Holder home (thats eggplant...the other two walls are an odd camel color..the room was SO dark it was depressing.

and here is an absolutely horrible picture of the color that we painted it. It's called "Barely jade" you can't tell but its a gorgeous grey/blue depending on the lighting in the room ( which is so lovely in the evenings )

a glimpse of our BEAUTIFUL new bed ....again...such a terrible picture

the master is one of my fa vorite rooms so far..and i will {hopefully} share more pictures very soon

and here is one of my favorite things in our bedroom. I had this custom made by the lovely, lovely Sara from A Vintage Poster! It makes me smile every time i see it.

It is hanging above our bed and it looks perfect there. LOVE!

Just a few more bad quality pics ...

Sunroom: The sunroom is amazing! it is an add-on, right off the kitchen, living room area- complete with gorgeous french doors! This room was a little boys bedroom. the walls were originally a very pale yellow, and very dirty...we painted it a super bright sunshiney- yellow and its such a happy room! sort of looks like a reception is about to happen in there in this pic..hmm)

and before i get too carried away, I will leave you with probably my favorite part of the house - the back yard! Don't worry, we mowed it recently..

have a lovely day! I will {hopefully} be back soon!

Hey, big tuna!

2011-01-05T17:21:00.000-06:00

no... no this tuna

Last nights menu, as promised, included tuna, roasted potatoes, salad, and cilantro sauce on EVERYTHING! No joke, this is my favorite sauce ever. Sadly, i didn't come up with it - the recipe originates from this lovely blog. It is one of my absolute FAVORITE food blogs. ever. Their recipes are super original, and always amazing. Anyway, this sauce made it's first appearance in our not too long after they posted it...and it keeps reappearing! We even worked it into our valentines day dinner this year. I am convinced that i goes with EVERYTHING. Maybe not ice cream...then again...hmm

Alright well lets get to it...

Holder Dinner January 4, 2011!

Roasted Yellow Potatoes with Seared Ahi Tuna

Roasted potatoes

this recipe is probably a random mixture of other recipes i've either looked up or made up..but it's super simple, yo!

4-5 Yukon potatoes, cut in 1/4ths
around 1/2 cup EV olive oil
3 cloves garlic, minced
3-ish tbspn rosemary leaves, roughly chopped
2 tsp smoked paprika
salt and pepper

all I did was throw the potatoes in a bowl with all that good stuff to make sure its coated really well, and then put it in a 400 degree oven for about 45 minutes and, voila! roasted potatoes. (by the way, the cilantro sauce is amazing on the potatoes...:) )

Seared Ahi tuna

Now, I have to confess, I did not cook these. My amazing husband did, as he is much more skilled in the tuna searing area. But I can tell you that we hesitantly bought a bag of individually wrapped FROZEN ahi tuna steaks and they were surprisingly great! These don't even need a "recipe" really...he just heated some vegitable oil (I would have gone for butter..but we're trying to be healthy...sigh) in our cast iron on medium high, seasoned the steaks with salt and pepper, and seared them for about 1-2 minutes on each side. Then, of course, they were topped with cilantro sauce. My gosh, I'm not kidding when I tell you that it's amazing. Have I mentioned that already? my bad...

Here's an absolutely horrible picture of our dinner yes. I was too lazy to get out the real camera...or clear off the cutting board before I took the picture...you can't tell, but the sauce ended up on the salad as well. I couldn't help it!

Happy Wednesday!

Resolution Revolution

2011-01-04T10:05:00.000-06:00

Hello, 2011! It's been awhile ( I think I begin all of my posts this way now..)

this morning, as I was typing out my ideas for dinner in an email to my dear husband, i had a revolution. why don't I keep track of what I make for dinner? I mean..It usually isn't anything spectacular, but sometimes I do surprise myself.

There are occasions where I actually crack open a cookbook or search for a recipe online..I must admit..but usually, dinner is my own creation, or a collaborative effort between me and the husband. So often as we are enjoying our creations, we say "we have to try this again!" and then, of course, it never happens. why? because other than those sketchy emails we send back and forth throughout the day, those dinner ideas are lost in space. yes, I just said that.

So. This is the beginning of my new years resolution revolution (it's just fun to type...sorry) Starting with last nights dinner, which...sadly, wasn't great- but it didn't suck either! yes!!

Holder Dinner January 3, 2011

Mixed green salad with "grilled' Chicken and zucchini *

- I wasn't SUPER happy with this, just because of the mix of the zucchini in the salad. it was a bit..too different. The zucchini tasted great! but i Think it would have been better on the side, not on the salad. other than that, it was a fairly fun way to eat salad- which we're trying to do most every night now.

1 chicken breast, cut into bite size pieces
1/2 zuchinni, cut longways into matchsticks
mixed greens, or any type of lettuce (next time i think i'll just try spinach)
Toasted almonds
Romano Cheese
Olive Oil (for dressing)
parsley garlic butter (2 tbsp butter, handful of finely chopped parsley, 2 cloves garlic, minced)

-melt the butter in the microwave for 15 seconds, or until it's soft. mix in parsley and garlic. add cut up chicken and "marinate" for a few minutes so that the chicken can soak up..all that good stuff

-to cook the chicken (and zucchini), I used a nonstick grill pan (thanks Mammaw!) really, just for fun... but it worked pretty well I think!

-Then....add the chicken and zucchini and chicken to the lettuce, top with almonds, Romano cheese, and olive oil.

...that's it!

Parmesean Garlic Grits( fine..polenta) ***

these were AMAZING! Definitely on our "do it again" list. I had been looking at various grits..polenta recipes throughout the day, and finally decided to just wing it. Its pretty simple, but I was proud of myself.

2 cups chicken broth
6 tbsp quick grits
3 cloves garlic, minced
1/2 cup grated Parmesan
1/4-ish cup parsley
3 tbsp butter

-bring chicken broth to a boil
-quickly stir in grits, and lower heat to med/low-
-add garlic and cover - cook for 5-6 minutes
-add butter -after butter is melted, stir in Parmesan and parsley
-season w/ salt and pepper
- eat!

So what's on the menu tonight? well..so far, Ahi tuna with cilantro lime sauce, roasted yellow potatoes and salad. we'll see how it goes-the sauce will probably end up on the potatoes too....also possibly the salad..

Happy New Year!!

..and Merry (late) Christmas!

[ I was attempting to take a photo for a Christmas card..clearly it didn't work out, but it's still cute ;)]

Finally fall..

2010-10-11T20:58:00.001-05:00

Fall is such an amazing, spiritual season - it normally is to me anyway. Thus far, fall has proven to be a bit moody, but nonetheless beautiful and rejuvenating. Lately I have been struggling with the art of relaxing, and just ..letting things go- letting things happen as they happen, and taking each trial as a battle to overcome. I think I will get there..but it's a slow process

Thats all I have for now- It's about bed time for this bonzo-gal. Before I go, however, I would like to share a quick glimpse into my world as of late..lovely fall colors!

hopefully it won't be another month until I am back again!!

Wow. its been a while..again.

2010-08-29T12:33:00.000-05:00

It seems as though every other post for the last few months has started similarly.. What can I say? Life is busy? eh.. I suppose. I've been lazy? probably more so. I think really its just been a long stretch of bloggers block. nothing exciting to share..nothing interesting to say.   But blogging is such good therapy! Maybe I will try harder.

This week has been absolutely beautiful- finally out of the 100's - the windows are wide open on this lovely Sunday morning, and the curtains are blowing in the breeze. Perfection.   It feels like fall- finally..fall.

I am probably jumping the gun a bit, considering next week will be in the lower 90's. I don't care. My pumpkin spice and apple cider candles are out, I've switched out a few of my more summer-esque decor with a bit of burnt orange and dark greens..and I"m contemplating putting away the shorts and tank tops. I should probably wait..

We did a bit of painting this weekend..and I must say I am happy with the results. Quite a while ago, I blogged about the two ugly end tables we purchased at walmart..target..something of that nature- and what in the world could we do with them! well ...earlier this year we did something. we bought a lovely yellow paint with every intention of painting those suckers.   ...5 or 6 months later I am happy ( and a bit embarrassed) to say that we finally got around to that! the weather was right, the wind wasn't too strong, and we needed to be productive!

Here are a few pics- they look super blurry for some reason..not enough light i guess..?

1st end table by the door with our super awesome vintage lamp (one of my favorite antique store finds!)

Here is the other end table- just a closeup. Yes. that is a Star Wars record in the background... " The story of Star Wars" to be exact..one of my husbands prized possessions..

I think I am pretty darn happy with the way the color came out. that doesn't meant it will stay that color forever ;)

on my next post ( you know, in a few months..) I will FINALLY post pictures of our anniversary trip to colorado! yeah. that was in june ;)

here is a preview:

Morning inspiration

2010-07-14T09:06:00.000-05:00

Every so often I stumble across a blog that just really lifts my spirits..well, this is one of them! I have been subscribed to her blog for a while, but her last post was so incredibly Inspiring that i just had to share! It will brighten your day. Promise.

Please visit : http://www.thewayofthehappywoman.com/

have a lovely day!

photo taken by me with my trusty Iphone:)

Oh Dear, it's been a while. Again

2010-06-28T10:07:00.000-05:00

(polaroid of a meadow we stumbled across at a local garden this weekend while out with family-isnt it lovely?)

Well, it's definitely summer! My how the definitition of summer changes when you're a "grown-up"! Summer used to mean freedom, fun, sleeping late, staying up late, moonlit walks to the park, popsicles..slip-n-slides!! ah.. I do miss the slip-n-slides.

Now summer means...lots to do! I think each weekend in July is "booked!" and each weekday is filled with work...but you know, summer is still fun around here! All those booked weekends are filled with fun, friends, and wonderful family. As adults I feel like it's easy to pass off summer as just another season, but if we try super hard to get in touch with our kid side, every friday afternoon could feel like the last day of school! and every summer night can be treated with the same respect a 10 year old would treat it. bring on the popsicles, late night walks, swimming, bike rides, and grill-outs! its ok that i have to get up at 7 the next day :) Who knows, I may even go out and buy a slip-n-slides..now where to put it at our apartment..hmm

another post coming soon....on redecorating...hopefully I actually follow through!!

have a BEAUTIFUL Monday!

Puppy Face!

2010-05-17T19:16:00.000-05:00

Monday is officially "puppy face" day! and in honor of our first puppy face day, here a few super-sweet ..puppy faces!

Pretty bird

2010-05-13T17:12:00.000-05:00

I don't know what sparked it, but I developed an immense adoration for birds. I have a growing collection of bird necklaces, and, you may have noticed in my previous post of my apartment, they are pretty much everywhere ( my younger sister counted over 40 birds in our apartment once last year. I can assure you..the number has grown since!)

Yes, I mostly mean decorations involving birds, but I really do adore the little creatures in general..its so funny to think that they're always around us, sitting outside our window, in the trees, hanging out by restaurant patios..no one really seems to notice their delicate little bodies hopping around, bobbing their head back and forth..they're just so sweet looking! Maybe I'm crazy for loving them so..but to me they're a symbol of innocence and..well, peace. I'm sure its just me..

Anyway, I was thinking of what I wanted to post next and i decided that i wanted to share some of my favorite bird art- mostly found on etsy

so here are a couple of favorites:

I am so sad that this sweet little necklace has been sold! but it's still lovely lo look at!

This adorable print is hanging in my dining room!

and these brass bluebird charms are next on my to-buy list!!

this may become a habit-more birds to come!!

Our Little Home

2010-05-11T23:26:00.004-05:00

Good evening friends! it is definitely past my bedtime, but I thought that since I was up, I would share with you some pictures of our little home. It is, infact, an apartment (on the 3rd floor, no less!) but nonethless it is our HOME and we love it- love in it, and fill it with lots of happiness and quite often at night, the smell of really darn good food:) Plus we have a fantastic view of an open field with a single barn..and the sun always sets over that barn. what more could we ask for??

so here we go!

our living room:

(our little friends in the window-they're actually from our wedding! my amazing mom made them! I know, totally tacky to have them up there with tape. but I promise, you can't see it ! and im too lazy to figure out another way....any ideas??)

Dining room:

(pieces of)the office -AKA my "craft room"/my ongoing project/my ongoing headache(!) a sweet gift from my amazing husband!:

these things don't look too pretty, but they mean a WHOLE lot to me..:)

Bedroom:

and a few more extras..

This is probably our favorite print in the apartment-a Christmas present from my lovely sister-in -law!

our forget-me-not's -these were in my wedding bouquet!

our poor hydrangia...no blooms yet, but we're hopeful!!

welp, that about does it! Hope you enjoy..i think its definitely bed time now!

Photo Clean-up

2010-05-11T11:05:00.001-05:00

I am trying to clean up the card on my poor Olly- she's about to bust with photos!! Here are a few- im not super SUPER proud of them, but they're aight..hope you enjoy?

this last one is a SUPER mini preview of our new home-I will have a full tour up very soon!!

Rainy Days and Mondays..

2010-05-10T10:16:00.005-05:00

Really aren't that bad. I wish someone had told Karen Carpenter this.

(This is here for no other reason other than ..well..I adore this picture. I can't figure out why but I really do.)

Today is a very sleepy day- not to say that I am sleeping much today, I was up just as always, walking the dog half a sleep, getting ready for my work- day ( also half a sleep at this point) yogurt and coffee..maybe that will wake me up?

Well I'm about done with my coffee ( 2 and 1/2 hours later..) and I am still seconds away from a sweet sweet rainy day nap.

Sadly I am at work :)

but it is a lovely day, the lights seem dimmer, the world outside seems much calmer...and every so often something or other in this large room makes a slight whistling noise. I am enjoying this sleepy day, even though I am not at home relaxing. I am, in fact at work- listening to lovely music and reading even lovelier blogs...drinking 2 hour old coffee.. I think I will move to green tea next.

Tonight I plan on relaxing with the pups, the boy, and some Betty ( freakin) White on SNL ( yes, we missed it...I'm not an enormous fan of SNL- but Betty White makes it worth it!!) and I cannot wait until 6:00 ..and its not even 10:30!!

Until then I will sit at work and daydream about our trip to Colorado we're taking in about a month to celebrate this

and this!

I can't believe its almost been a year!!!! I love my guy ( and all these wonderful people!!)

(side note- listening to the Sufjan Stevens Pandora station while very sleepy..at work..probably not the smartest idea..its so soothing!)

Edit: finally got a new blog look! what do you think?I was going for ...not busy..:)

Oh my dog..

2010-04-24T11:12:00.004-05:00

sheesh!

Its been almost two months since I've posted anything!! I guess I've been busy working, drooling other other peoples blogs, and being a mommy! (..puppy mommy, of course!!) but right now the pups are chillin near the open balcony door enjoying the cool air from the rain...and I'm enjoying a lovely cup of toasted rice green tea ( sounds odd..but its fantastic)

So while everyone was at peace, I thought I would pop in and say HI! And share some pictures with you ( taken, of course, with our trusty Olly cam - who we have grown very close to!)

can you guess the theme of these pics? ;)

(my two boys :) )

This is Rocko (Aka Taco, Rocko Taco, The Taconator..)

he loves car rides

and Licking his nose
and posing for the camera! He's such a cheese ball!

This is Sherlock (aka cat, reddy...but mostly I call him kitty)
he likes to prowl in the front garden of my parents house. He's very sneaky

and THIS is our newest addition, Henry! (aka bug, henrybug, poopy butt, and tinkle butt..because he goes more than a 90 year old woman..)

hes a mini austrailian shepherd/beagle mix- and hes the sweetest thing in the world (except Rocko!)

Unfortunately not all the pictures are where I want them! silly blogger..or silly google chrome..either way, enjoy and have a BEAUTIFUL weekend!

Weekend happiness, and an exciting week ahead!

2010-03-01T12:41:00.005-06:00

This weekend was fantastic!

The boys birthday was on friday

My lovely Sister-In-Law and her equally as lovely Fiance visited for th weekened, and many fantastic family gatherings were held

we finally got ourselves a grown-up camera! It is our new pet. I named him Olly, because i'm silly like that.

we love Olly quite a bit!

Sunday morning, we had a lovely breakfast at one of our most favoritiest restaurants in town,

and from there made a completely spontaneous day trip to Eureka Springs! It was so much fun to take our new camera along and try it out while walking along the streets of Eureka, trying a few restaurants and stopping in some shops along the way, people watching ( because there are some very interesting people in Eureka...)

and we found (and purchased) THIS!

such a cool replica of "The Kiss"(artist is James Dean)! notice pete the cat, totally interrupting :) When i student taught elementary, the kids were ALL about pete the cat..it was one of their favorite song activities, so of course seeing his art all over this litle store in Eureka was so exciting for me!

It was indeed a successful outing, and we were definitely worn out by the time we got home..

Now for the exciting events taking place this week!!

Tomorrow I will not be working. Why, you ask? because I will be HERE!

oh yes...

and then, thursday, I will be rushing out the door after work and driving two hours to my Alma Mater to hear this lovely lady. She is one of the most fantastic jazz singers around today, and my absolute favorite when it comes to scat singing! such a smooth, lyrical voice..I adore her- and her new cd!!

whew..what a week..ok, time for lunch! Expect some fun Eureka Springs pics (by Olly!) quite soon..

Have a lovely day!

Spring...please come visit!

2010-02-24T12:34:00.006-06:00

I just do not know what my deal is today. Maybe it's because it looks gorgeous outside..and yet, its still 30 degrees. Maybe it's because I stumbled upon so many lovely spring and summer garments while visiting other blogs this morning..maybe its the music I've been listen to..I dont know, but I am absolutely ITCHING for spring to be here-right now!

unfortunately the prediction of snow on friday has crushed any dreams I had left of spring coming a bit early this year. sigh. why?

oh well, the longer I wait the more glorious the first warm day will be! The day that I can bring out the skirts, flip flops and tanks will be such a fabulous day..I really cannot wait..

really.

so ..for now, I will just look at lovely spring-like eye candy

such as

via F21

ooo, and this..

via Anthropologie

and i just cannot get over this dress...

via Everything Fabulous

and i absolutely adore this tank....

via Gap

sigh..well..here's hoping for a super-early spring!!!!

I-Love-Your-Face

2010-02-17T12:45:00.005-06:00

About a month ago, my very sweet and super talented friend/photographer took some fantastic photos of me and the boy.

Here are just a few (of almost 70!)

this last one is just too funny..

She is so so talented! I loved all 68 photos and I can't wait to do a make-up bridal portrait session with her as soon as the weather warms up! (I never got to do one before my wedding :-/ )

you can find more of her on facebook by searching for Khan Art. She is truly fantastic

Thanks Saira!!

Peace.

2010-02-11T12:28:00.001-06:00

“Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.”

Such wise words

2010-01-25T10:29:00.003-06:00

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

(If anyone knows where this quote originates from, please let me know- I could not find out!)

"Always the years between us. Always the years, always the love, always the hours"

2010-01-20T12:06:00.006-06:00

I love this movie

No really, I do! I know what people say about it ..and yes it is a bit off..I realize that.

And yes, I do realize that I may be the only person to really truly love this movie.

I dont care. I love it. Its so beautiful..

The casting is perfect. The dialogue is fantastic. The music is haunting.

I watched this movie last night ( yes I own it..on VHS of all things) with my wonderful husband who has sat through so many movies he would NEVER choose to watch like..Rent...A Chorus Line..How to Deal..Mamma Mia..and even An Affair to Remember!!
all with very little complaining!

he really truly is an amazing man..

That wasnt my point! My point is that there is one line in the movie that I absolutely love, and I have been thinking about it all day. It may be my new motto

"You cannot find peace by avoiding life, Leonard"

It is so true

there are so many things that Nicole Kidmans character (Virginia Woolf) says that just floor me. but that one is the best by far.

And though my heart belongs to Meryl Streep in most cases, Nicole Kidman definitely steals the show in this film..She is a perfect Virginia Woolf in my book (ha).

7 Months ago today

2010-01-13T11:33:00.005-06:00

I was doing this

and it was so lovely!

I know 7 months isn't a milestone anniversary - but every month anniversary is special to me:) I dont know why..I just get excited and feel the need to do at least ONE special thing to commemorate the occasion

I LOVE this guy

So so so much! He is the bees knees- the best part of my day- my best friend - my infinite supply of hugs - my therapist - my comic relief - my chef - my daily reminder that I am fortunate in so many ways - my "it" and my forever and ever

( by the way, even though its practically impossible to embarrass the dear boy, he would KILL me if he knew I put this picture up...in case you're wondering, he's watching basketball. And apparently he's really enjoying it ;) )

ILYINI**

Do you ever feel out of place?

2010-01-12T10:29:00.003-06:00

I do

Every day

I don't mind, really.. I'm pretty used to it. Actually, it can be comical at times.

For example: When the Classical music station on tv(yes I do turn our hd tv at work to the classical music station..so?) starts playing one of your FAVORITE songs and you say "oh my gosh I LOVE this song.." out loud....and people give you this look like..are you serious? this is so lame..why would anyone actually "love" one of these songs? you feel a little out of place..yeah?

( in case you were wondering...it was The Young Persons guide to the Orchestra by B. Britten. I adore it- its just so fun! I can thank my music history teacher for that one)

So, I'm a music nerd.

ah...and then you comment on the amazing sunset outside..and a co-worker snidley remarks "yeah, I'm surprised you're not taking a picture of it!"

just a little out of place.

but you know what? I have a thing for sunsets, the sky in general- I find them to be absolutely breathtaking, and I like to capture them for myself, and sometimes share them with you! I dont see why thats so strange...

I also happen to have a thing for music- through the influence of my Dad, NPR, and my college experience I have a greater appreciation for things such as classical music..and yes, sometimes I do listen to it when I work out. have you ever heard Mozarts symphony no. 21 mvt. 1 through headphones? its spectacular!

this is when I begin to miss college again, and my amazing friends in the music department. they'd understand:)

Again, I dont mind too much. I just wish I had more in common with my peers sometimes...

ah well. In the meantime, as I dream of being surrounded by like-minded folks, I can be content that I have so many fantastic blogs to run to when I need some creative energy, and soon I will be back in school surrounded by artists again..

I hope this doesnt make me sound whiney..or somehow egotistical or ..something super lame like that......it's not meant to-promise!

Taken at our FAVORITE place for brunch -Gaylords...oh,now I'm hungry!

If only I was brave enough...

2010-01-11T16:37:00.002-06:00

and talented enough, of course

Glee is having open auditions!

that would be way too fun...but way way way too scary.

ahhh well-it'll be fun to see what people send in! rest assured I will not be one of them...;)

I HAVE HAVE HAVE to have one of these!!

2010-01-07T12:24:00.006-06:00

I shouldn't say that. I dont HAVE to. but I so want one..you have no idea

This is the most fantastic etsy store I have seen in quite a while

Polaroid Jewelry

and this is the loveliest neckalce I have seen in quite a while

I can't wait to come up with a bit of spending money...anyone want voice lessons or knitting lessons for cheap? ? I can even knit you somethin'! just lemme know;)

as a side note I thought I should mention that listening to the classical music sirius station at work while drinking Jasmine and eating rosemary olive oil potato chips ( i know it sounds like a weird combination, but it works) is absolutely lovely- especially since getting to work was so scary! silly ice..

O Dear

2010-01-05T10:55:00.003-06:00

My blog has gone downhill, my friends..way. way. downhill. I will attempt to fix this soon..until then..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Although I must admit the end of the Christmas season has gotten me a little down..Its always nice to see a nice clean slate in front of you..

My new years resolutions this year are:

1. Be a kinder spirit

2. Have a more productive attitude

3. Be more artistic

4. Play video games with my husband

5. Cook more

thats it. plain and simple

Have a lovely day!

Oh Christmas, How I love you!

2009-12-18T15:29:00.003-06:00

First off. for those of you who actually do read my humble little blog, I thank you- and I apologize for my frequent absenses. I have not lately been inspired to post. I dont mean, however, that I have been unhappy- of course, not at all! It's Christmas time! I am never unhappy during the month of December..I can't allow it! I simply mean that although I have been loyal to all of my regular blogs, I have not felt worthy to share any of my own thoughts.

Well, today I am inspired.

Maybe it is because Christmas is a week away

Maybe it is because it's ugly christmas sweater/ potluck day at work (good news Mom, yours wasnt the ugliest!)

Maybe it's because I know I am going to be spending lots of time with family very soon

Who knows.

But everything today has lifted my spirits, inspired me to create, to be happy, and to spread that intoxicating Christmas cheer!

Today I emailed my wonderful Husband and told him I wanted my own craft room. right now my "craft room" consists of a portion of our "office" which, since we are moving soon and we have yet to put away the empty boxes that once contained our christmas decorations..has turned into more of a storage room..

Today I also decided that I want to dye my hair again

and to cut it all off

Today I want to go find fun holiday outfits and try fun holiday hairdo's

Today I want to hang with my family and watch christmas movies

Today I want to go out and buy tons more presents for my amazing Husband- because..he IS truly truly amazing..and hes way too easy to shop for..

Today I want to take a long brisk walk around town..maybe go for a sprint. The weather is perfect!

But I'll resist...with most of this (the self indulgent, expensive part). I may accidently wander into thair hair dye section at walmart...and end up with red hair ..sorry mom..I know you hate that . and the walk is definitely on tonights schedule

I think I've made up for the few weeks I havent been around...I am such a rambler!!

So..to wrap this up, here are a few christmas pictures I've collected so far

and don't forget- The best way to spread christmas cheer is singing loud for all to hear!! SO lets all crank the christmas music in the car, roll down the window, smile at the person next to you and sing your heart out!

Theres so much to be thankful for

2009-11-25T09:24:00.002-06:00

My goodness it has been a while! I dont know where I have been...!

But there is absolutely nothing to do at work today so I believe its high time for a post

and the topic of todays post..is...guess!

THANKSGIVING!!

I so love thanksgiving. I love all the family being together, helping with the cooking (I'm even making a dessert for one of my thanksgivings this year!! scary..) all the happiness..laughter..music..

I also love how thanksgiving marks the beginning of christmas season. Even though we were bad and put up our tree on sunday..and I've been listening to christmas music a bit when no one else is around ( shh!!) AND I watched elf this weekend...
Now i dont have to feel guilty about it! I intend to listen to christmas music from November 26th to january 1st. Bing Crosby, Frank Sinatra, Josh Groban, Manheim Steamroller, Vince Guaraldi, AND Sufjan Stevens (one of THE BEST christmas compilations ever!! you must check it out if you havent)

Now that last one was a bit difficult to listen to for a while...and that comes with a story:

Last year, the saturday after Thankgsiving started so amazing. Why, you ask? it snowed! Nothing major, just some flurries on and off..and a little sleet. but it was beautiful!! It was just perfect.
And so on this particular day it snowed just a little
on and off .
all day.

snow is sneaky like that. Because no one would think that this snow would be in the least bit dangerous. nah. not this snow. its happy!

Well, friends. On this particular saturday night, we headed over to El's moms for a fantastic thanksgiving dinner. and I mean that. phoenominal ( as are all meals at the Phillips residence!) We had lots of fun, ate amazing food, listened to christmas music and got a little huskier..

and then we headed home.

As my lovely and wonderful boyfriend drove me home, I decided to stick in some sufjan to make the ride a bit more magical..it was a very peaceful drive.. still a light flurry in the air- so i say..maybe we should stay off the highway...nahhh!!

silly me

because as we drove along the highway ( going only aabout 45, mind you) holding hands and singing along to a hymn on our sufjan cd..the happy pretty snow turned a bit evil

suddenly we were skidding off the rode
flipping over
and over
and then skidding accross t he southbound lane of the highway..upside down

As I screamed I remember thinking "God please dont take him from me" because he was silent. and all i could see was the back of his head bent over..It was the most horrifying thing I had ever experienced. ever. ever. ever.

THANK GOD we both made it out alive!! I thank God ..and Nissan for building such a tough car!!! Poor little Terra...

but for the remainder of the christmas season..
I could not listen to Sufjans christmas cd
I could not drive or ride on the highway without having at least a mild panic attack
and I was super attachd ( possibly at an unhealthy level) to El... because he was almost taken from me. if he was even an inch shorter..I don't even want to think about it ..

MY POINT is
I can now listen to Sufjan again without breaking down..or getting really nervous :)

and I am soo thankful for that!

and for my health

and for my amazing-fantastic- super cool- handsome husband that has stuck with me for 4 years even though I can be ridiculous sometimes

and for my family and their support

and for christmas movies

and christmas music

and pretty lights

and hugs

and friendly people

and fuzzy sweaters

and christmas trees

and, of course, the reason for the season!!

I am so thankful for every day He has given me, and for every one He has blessed me with!

what are YOU thankful for??

Have a FANTASTIC thanksgiving!!

Getaway!

2009-11-11T10:45:00.002-06:00

I am so so so excited to say that the boy and I are finally going to celebrate one of our anniversaries in "style"! with no tv, no central heat, no phone service..and tons and tons of gorgeous mountains!

We will be staying in this lovely cabin for a couple of nights and hiking (yes in december) all around the fantastic Boston mountains!

I predict lots of cuddling by the fire, marshmallows, stew, board games and hiking. it will be fun times for sure! Happy almost 4 years Daisy! ( and 6 months of marriage!!) I love you like Chuck Norris loves roundhouse kicks!!

Weekend Pictures( again!)

2009-11-09T12:51:00.005-06:00

believe I am

forming a habit of this..I guess thats ok though:)

2009-11-05T09:36:00.004-06:00

This morning I woke up happy. Reluctantly, but Happy. The sun was pouring through our window, the tree just outside was a gorgeous orangy-yellow color- all was right with the world

Until I began my commute to work

people wouldnt move as I merged onto the highway

The car in front of me decided to go 65 in the left lane

the cars behind me got mad. at me. and proceeded to pass

as soon as they realized they couldnt go anywhere..they squeezed between me ..and the slow car

the slow car STAYED in the left lane. despite multiple cars giving it plenty of indication that it was, in fact, not welcome in this lane

a fedex truck was coming up so fast behind me i was sure it would just run right over me

But no matter..I get to work..everything is happy and pretty again:)

until the phone rings. People are hateful already. Hateful and demanding. and Rude. and hateful. did I mention hateful?

I was upset. I turned to the best person to turn to when I'm upset.

this is what he says :

"All the more reason to be super nice to everyone. I think that's a great idea honey! I love you and it's my strong opinion that if the world is mean to you then you should be nice right back!"

oh I love him...

so thats what I will do! I will put on a big inviting smile, be as helpful as I can possibly be, and use a sweet, positive tone when I talk to people. And it will make them happier (or annoyed...but thats their own fault) and then..I will take their harshness and put it in my yucky jar. then throw it away at the end of the day

because I know...there will be more angry people on the high way tonight;)

Halloweekend Pictures!

2009-11-02T15:03:00.009-06:00

Don't let the description fool you..most of these pictures have nothing to do with halloween ;)

My guilty pleasure

2009-10-29T09:49:00.008-05:00

Meet my guilty pleasure

That's right. Josh Groban.

I. Love. Him.

I can't help it. ever since his first cd came out when I was in high school, I have loved him, his music..his hair :)

I remember the first time I ever heard his voice. My dad and I were in the music/movie section at Barnes and Noble, and this cd starts playing..and immediately stopped me in my tracks. At first I thought to my self..what is this, Andrea Boccelli? no...too good (no offense Bocelli fans..) It was enchanting- intoxicating- it was Alla Luce Dal Sole. I, of course, immediately purchased the cd. And listened to it non stop for months.

Mr Groban continues to make me swoon, most recently with his christmas cd and his song "Believe" from polar express( not so recent, I know...but it's ALMOST that time of year!) . I adore that song..Whenever we watch Polar Express( which is quite often after Thanksgiving)I always make El watch the credits so we can listen to it:) Sad? Yes. Neccecary? Yes.

My point is

Josh Groban guest starred on glee last month. This was before I had ever watched it.

And now- its nowhere to be found- not on Fox.com, not on Hulu, not on joshgroban.com ...I am so depressed rigiht now.

I had no idea

I'm sorry Josh. So sorry.

SO if any of you lovely ladies out there happen to have a recording of this particular episode for some CRAZY reason....PLEASE send it my way!!! I will give you my address, I will drive-even fly to your house to borrow it- I will give you a hug!

if not..I will just have to wait until season one comes out on dv..

until then..

I will continue to love Josh for his music.

"Cause I'm a rhinestone cowboy..and thats the end of it"

(if you know what I'm referring to...we have to talk..)

Weekend Pictures

2009-10-26T09:27:00.006-05:00

Good morning!

I hope you all had a lovely weekend! WE certainly did :)

Here are some pictures from yesterdays "adventure"..we went on a blind search for hiking trails..and ended up at a beautiful park in a small town near where we live :)

The trees were amazing- and the color of the water was just gorgeous! we will definitely be going back soon :)

Cuddling is my favorite..:)

A tribute and a welcome

2009-10-21T09:39:00.011-05:00

*Side note- isnt the sight of changing leaves just absolutely magical? every fall I feel as if I'm seeing it for the first time.its so exciting! one day the view out my window is all green and the next bright oranges, browns and yellows- I love LOVE love it!

First, I want to pay tribute to my silly little LG flip phone:

Almost all the photos in the last few posts (sans sickly post) were taken with that terrible, wonderful phone (the free phone that was forced upon me when we made the indevidable switch to verizon.) There was nothing special about this thing.. but goodness did it make some impressive pictures

like this

and this

aaand this

as well as my blog header :)

Now for a welcome...

Hello you pretty little thang! welcome to the family :-D

Oh how I love my brand new shiny fancy iphone. and so far, it loves me too:)

this one is my favorite so far...

(Find the dinosaur! ;) theres a story behind it, i promise!)

this one is much more impressive if you've met my dog..he'd take lovely pictuers if he would just.sit.still...

well thats it for now, Have a lovely, fantastic day and take lots of pictures to remember it by!

Sickly

2009-10-06T11:31:00.009-05:00

Today I am facing reality: I am sick. I was in denial yesterday. but the throbbing head, sore throat, earache, coughing and constant change in temperature.. I think that equals sick

so today, since I'm stuck at work and can't climb into bed and watch silly tv shows all day... I am going post- and its going to have a theme- comfort

6 more hours and I'll be home with the guy eatin' some thai-from-a-box.. then an old movie and apple cinnamon theraflu...

then off to sleeeep

I can't wait

quiet monday

2009-10-05T10:13:00.004-05:00

So far it's a quiet monday..the weather outside is very ...peaceful to put it nicely- and its jumped from amazing 75 degree weather to about 55... but thats ok :)

Camping was amazing! sadly we didn't get to go hiking sunday- rain :/ but we made lots of good food, and cider- and made a couple of new friends

like this little guy:

he trekked all the way across our ropelights - it was pretty impressive. I called him germaine

I'll upload more camping pictures later...in the meantime here's a pretty picture of our pepper plant

they're getting so big! to bad all this cold weather might stunt their growth a bit...

excitement!

2009-10-01T09:38:00.006-05:00

reason for excitement #1: My new cd!

Tuesday night we went to target- for a couple of reasons, one was to buy the lovely lovely Imogen Heap's new cd. Sadly ( and I was very sad) it wasn't there ...even though I went to the website to confirm that yes, it was in the store! silly websites.

jump to a couple-o hours later at home- Im doing something or other in the living room, the husband is in the office "cleaing out his inbox" ( he never checks his email..or his phone...thats why he married me- personal secretary ;) KIDDING!) I go in to say hi, and he tells me to check my email- i think he's forwarded me soemthign funny or financially important. nope- he's given me an itunes gift -yep- Imogen's new cd!!

its A-MA-ZING!!! you must check it out.

reason for excitement#2

WE'RE GOING CAMPING THIS WEEKEND!!!!

I will bring back pictures :)

plus I have tomorrow off( work saturday..only 4 hours !) so I get to go shopping for camping-y stuff!:D

..what do you need for camping? Help!

weekend pictures

2009-09-28T09:49:00.008-05:00

Hope you had as lovely a weekend as we did!

oh..btw- please! please! tell me what you think about my new header and background!! I'm not too sure about the background..I may decide to go for something a bit more simple... I wish I knew how to make my own!

Morning Happiness

2009-09-23T09:58:00.004-05:00

This was my breakfast

I miss it already....

by the way that's oatmeal.. apple cinnamon to be exact....and apple smoked bacon

what? it's fall - I can't help it!

for the love of books!

2009-09-22T14:12:00.010-05:00

I love books. I always have-I love how it feels to walk through a book store, and find just the right one.

I love purchasing books - I never go to the libary..wasteful, I know-I just hate giving up something I become so attached to! plus that way I can loan it out to friends!

Recently, I've been reading more. much more. Ive discovered that eating my lunch while at work and then spending my lunch break alone at the park with a good book makes my day much,much sweeter.

So, for the love of books, I decided to share with you what is on my shelf right now-

so far this month I have read:

Very lovely book. hillarious and ironic- fairly quick read- great story line- I absolutely loved the main character and her"english major" undertones

I am two chapters away from finishing :

I'm gonna go ahead and say it- this book is bizarre..but I love it! It is just so..interesting, I cannot wait to find out what happens in the end. I am so emotionally involve with the characters its ridiculous! It's not what I expected at all when I purchased it, and not something I would typically pick out for myself -but I'm so glad I did! well..so far anyway, I haven't finished it yet ;)

I will be picking up next week:

per my lovely sister in law's suggestion ( check out the fantastic sites she has created for the author too!) I am very excited!!

this lovely lovely book by Julie Andrews ..will eventually be finished!

If you are at all interested in biographies- or Julie Andrews..or, you know, even if you're not - it's worth pickig up -i'ts so great! I just ..haven't finished yet :-/

isn't she gorgeous?

and then there's always this treasure...

I picked this book up years ago- just because of the title and cover ( I do that too often..guilty ..) Its one of my absolute favorite books. I have read the first half dozens of times! I just havent actually read the while thing front to back! I think now is the time to do this. It really is one of the most beautiful books I have ever read. A memoir written by an american man- who moves his family to Paris-its so real, and his descriptions of paris life is just gorgeous. Everytime I read it I want to immediately hop on a plane to paris. Incidently, does anyone else picture paris in black and white? I do..:)

weekend love, coffee love, quote love..

2009-09-21T11:25:00.006-05:00

It's been a while..I know. I've been caught up in ...eh, that's not a very good excuse:) I've just been living ..living is fun:) I had the perfect weekend complete with a beautiful sunny sunday afternoon and our first parent "thank you" dinner which was very successfull I think! why dont i just..share the menu while I'm in the mood to type !

Holder dinner menu:

numero uno :Roquefort Cheese and toasted pecan salad with apples (bride and groom cookbook! such a great resource!) the dressing was so amazing! all you you have to do is mix a 4th cup of heavy cream, some roquefort( or bleu) cheese and salt and pepper . its so stinkin awesome.. The actual recipe called for chicories- but apparently- you can't get them in NWA . go figure. no Blue plate mayonaise, no chicories. sowe replaced it with a really good Herb mix. big hit!

numero dos: a choice of my amazing -cook-of-a-husband's 15 bean soup (for our lovely lovely vegitarian mom- although enjoyed it as well! and will be again today for lunch ;) ) or his super-fantastic "work week" stew..or 5 day stew..or ..we had lots of names for it ..

numero tres- Autumn harvest cheese fondue.. oh. my . goodness. this was amazing. 3 kinds of cheese, some amber cider , cinnamon..oh i dont know what else but it rocked!

all in all it was a very successful and enjoyable lunch! Have I mentioned how much I love my new family ? they are so wonderful!!!

wow. I guess that made up for a few weeks of not posting. Lets ramble a little more !

I also discovered my new favorite coffee shop sunday morning! Ok, in all honestly Ive been aware of its existance for years- but it wasn't until recently that I realized..we live only a few blocks away from it..and I have NEVER been!

now I am addicted! I had an amazing peppered ham and..some sort of cheese crossant and a mayan mocha coffee ...oh man..I'm so excited to go back again..very soon I hope!

quote love:

I love this quote. El sent it to me at work the other day and so I stuck it in a file with a little bird..I plan on printing this out and putting it up in our bedroom- its such a good reminder.

have a lovely day!

Oh Nessie

2009-09-03T22:41:00.004-05:00

A few pictures from my trip down south to see Abbifriend

Nessie Lesson #1. stick to well- lit places

thank goodness for thed flash :)

My old home
Abigails old home

I love this one. (I always used this restroom anyway :) )

Terrible face- beautiful place
Ahh the tea room..

Hi Abby!

thats it. Off to Mississippi in the morning. Horray for road trips !

Meet the new member of our family!

2009-09-01T15:29:00.008-05:00

Here it is! the big secret! ( not really that big..)

I'd like to introduce you to Nessie! My new pride and joy:)

(taken with my crappy camera phone..at work)

(I've lovingly named my nifty new holga nessie..because it seems she's inherited my scottish temper..big time!)

please dont be too harsh..this was my first roll! (after my attempt to use 35 mm..that didnt ..well we wont talk about THAT roll..

still figuring out all the ins and outs of nessie. this was untaped, untempered with, al naturale- so that I can see just where the light will leak in..now its time to fix her up right perdy!

my favorite! Hola Bonnie!

Apparently i have a thing for trees

and its a well known fact that I collect sunsets and clouds...

I can't wait to see my next roll ! It's of my lovely weekend visit with my fabulous friend Abigail!

Does anyone have an holga photo-taking tips for me? I could use a few!!!

shameless band plug

2009-08-27T09:27:00.013-05:00

Deas Vail: Gods humble servant

if you're a fan of the indie scene( or not )..check these guys out. they're just fantastic. very original. I love them.

they all went to college with me. So I may be a bit partial..but their talent is through the roof and I'd love them even if I didnt know them! The lead singer and his wife (she plays keyboard n sings backup) were in the music program with me. very sweet people.

(and secretly I've always been a little jealous of Laurabeth..I mean..how fun would it be to be in a band with a bunch of guys! hah.. :P)

anyway... check them out. they may be coming to your city soon!

perfect day

2009-08-26T14:26:00.002-05:00

I must share something with you

found here- from here

thats all. today is a lovely day! it is for so many reasons ..and no reason at all:)

Fall!!!

2009-08-21T10:01:00.003-05:00

I know, I know.. wishful thinking..but it sure does smell like fall today! Oh I'm so excited...I love love love fall. It makes me so happy...it takes me back to high school..football season...pretty leaves. Sigh..

this fantastic beautiful-weather-filled weekend will include:

bike riding
haircuts
night picnics
day picnics
camping
family time
picture taking

that list makes me smile SO SO big!!

I want to go play outside. now. please?

eventually I will introduce my new surprise! really truly I will!

jumping up and down in my chair..

2009-08-19T12:01:00.005-05:00

I am so excited! I have something lovely to share with you!!!

but not yet:)

but its super-awesome!

heres a pretty picture to hold you over ;)

found in this post at design sponge

I may whine a bit...If I may

2009-08-17T12:51:00.017-05:00

Today has been very...sad..nostalgic...regretful...

I miss singing lessons

(by the way this looks nothing like my beautiful and talented voice teacher...look below!)

And choir

I miss my classmates

and my professors

<- thats her!

(find santa!)

I miss my college

I miss performing

I miss waking up and actually looking forward to all the work I had to do. because I really truly loved it

I regret not getting my licence sooner

I regret not subbing for a while before I took a desk job

I am sad that I wont be meeting with Belmont people in september..

I am sad that I can't just up and leave for school

I am sad that I can't afford singing lessons- and that i dont have the ability to teach them

I feel a little like a failure today

but there's always tomorrow:) and singing along with choral music in my car on the way home..and going home to an encouraging and loving husband

yeah..everything will be ok at 6:00 ..:)

to make up for my pity party- heres a link to this beautiful man's music . oh how I love him

all pictures courtesy of the ATU website, except of course the marx brothers...they didn't go to tech ;)

Lovely Quote..

2009-08-04T12:14:00.008-05:00

Something to really dwell on and really take to heart..I think I may start filling out that Grad School Application today...I just might :)

Many people have powerful dreams. However, most don't realize that the viability of their ideal tomorrow is based on what they do today. The difference between a dream and wishful thinking is what you're doing now. Practice today what you want to be tomorrow. If you do it well enough, someday you may arrive at your dream.

- Dr. John C. Maxwell

2009-08-03T15:46:00.002-05:00

Alright....

what lovely person would like to buy me one of these??

NieNie and Branson

2009-08-01T07:52:00.004-05:00

happy weekend everyone!!! my weekend is family-full! Morning and afternoon with my family and then headed out to Branson MO for a weekend with my NEW family! I am very much looking forward to all the family face time I will be having!

In other news a torrential downpour just occured outside. My 80 pound dog is most likely soaked now.you have no idea how ..happy... that makes me

Also, I discovered a blog yesterday. The NieNie diaries. Many of you may read this blog currently, but for those of you who dont. PLEASE do. She has an incredible story ..and she is one of the most high spirited and inspiring women I have ever encountered. so, please, hop on over to her blog and read a bit, or even a lot. I promise you will not be sorry. Cross my heart and kiss my elbow!

Have a lovely weekend everyone! Here is a lovely picture to go along with it :

..there goes that rain again

Confession

2009-07-31T09:18:00.011-05:00

Ok. I have a confession to make

It's about..an addiction. obsession, if you will

I. have.

an unhealthy obsession...

with this lovely, gorgeous lady right here

and I find this horrible "imitation" ....absolutely revolting...

and if I ever meet this..paris hilton woman..I will slap her for trying to impersonate such a lovely. humble, beautiful woman. because she clearly is none of these..

I mean who allowed her to do this? who said "sure paris you'd totally be a super-cool audrey hepburn!" someone who clearly has no taste. I mean..loook at her. she just looks..sinister

nevermind. Its just wrong. thats my point-and I had to share

does everyone agree with me on this? should she NOT ever have been allowed to do this???

in other news, today is a GORGEOUS day!

and my fabulous husband sent me flowers for no reason
sigh..la vita e bella!

Dear Husband:

2009-07-29T09:51:00.006-05:00

Thank you for being there for me. even in the middle of the night when I cant sleep..and, of course, you can

Thank you for making me tea when you know I need it. even when i dont ask

Thank you for the thai food, and the ice cream, and the movie

Thank you for protecting me from Rocko when he feels like sitting in my lap. Considering we weigh about the same, I dont think that would turn out too well

Thank you for being so encouraging. all. the. time

Thank you for believing in me

Thank you for big hugs and forhead kisses

Thank you for your love.

I love you

And your face

Always-always

-Wife

Bonjour chaton!

2009-07-28T08:51:00.008-05:00

last night I watched amelie...had a little reisling and blackberry cobbler...it doesnt get better than that.

This morning I'm enjoying a lovely cup of jasmine with agave nectar and pita chips...and its foggy outside....what a good morning it is!

I want. to be. HALF as lovely and gorgeous as this woman. please?

au revoir Beaux gens !

totally unrelated addition:

oh Gene..my heart is yours

To do:

2009-07-27T11:51:00.003-05:00

Here is my to do list - for the next year or so. in no particular order

1. get my teachers licence- just in case!

2. grow pretty flowers that I can cut and put in a vase whenever I fancy

3. Make my apartment more like a home for me and my best friend to enjoy

4. knit something difficult but gorgeous

5. learn not to let the mean, hateful things people do get to me

6. Quit my job for something a little more...well..me?

7. pay off doctor bills for GOOD

8. apply for graduate school

9. visit nashville

10. start graduate school

11. learn to be a more patient person

12. learn to RELAX

13. Love my husband more every day

14. get into a real laundry routine

15. Drink less coke and more tea

16. learn to bake

17. Do yoga every day

18. read the books I've recently purchased

19. Be more outgoing and adventurous

20. Go hiking

and I'll leave you with a lovely picture from this weekend

I painted.....and I dont think it sucks too bad

2009-07-17T09:18:00.003-05:00

So after I made my lovely tea shelf..I felt it needed something to go above it. maybe a sign...a picture related to tea...

but i couldnt find anything. and I've had a bit of a creative itch lately so..this is what I came up with .

dont laugh. I never do this..paint i mean..its not really my strong point :)

home-making at its finest

2009-07-15T09:36:00.007-05:00

I just wanted to stop in and share whats been going on at my home lately:

first off, the beautiful yellow buffet I introduced last week is now safely settled in our dining room

Also I would like to share a littly DIY project I completed this weekend.
I am quite proud of this (again please forgive the poor picture quality)

isn't my new teashelf just great?? of course, I can't take any credit at all for the design (found here )

also- please note the lovely hand towel made by my even lovelier sister-in-law! gorgeous isnt it??

now all I need is to finish my 'art' to go above the shelf and that will be the happiest corner in the whole apartment!

Welcome to our home!!

2009-07-10T10:12:00.010-05:00

update: this will be soon added to our dining room!!

we're absolutely not done yet..this is only the beginning!! but I thought I'd post what we have done so far..

please forgive the quality of the pictures...my camera has recently passed away (hopefully temporarily!) and this one cost about $50 :)

La vita è bella

2009-07-08T10:48:00.011-05:00

life really is beautiful, isnt it ? from sunsets and flowers and rainstorms to fun restaurants or just sitting on the kitchen counter at home with your best friend eating leftovers..its all so very beautiful to me :)

I love my life- I am very blessed. so what if I dont have the career i want yet, so what If our kitchen is tiny and my oh-so-important mug collection doesnt quite fit in the cabinet. so what if we dont have all the money in the world. I have the most amazing family, amazing friends, a safe job, an incredible ( and handsome!) husband and a lovely place to go home to:) what else could you ask for? (except maybe a back yard for the poor taco!)

speaking of our tiny kitchen- the apartment looks wonderful!!! I must say we've done a pretty good job making it look like a home. I will post pictures soon, I promise :) in the meantime come on over! we'll make you some rice :)

for now I'll leave you with a pretty picture, a quote, and some words of advice..in the reverse order ;)

advice:

SLOW DOWN! enjoy the little things...next time your'e walking to your car stop and look around at the trees and the flowers..the sky and the clouds..the people going about their lives..breathe deep..and I bet the rest of your walk will be wonderful:)

quote:

"I know it's only dreaming. But I reckon if you go on and act like something is real, sometimes it just believes you."

and a pretty picture:

I feel terrible but i honestly dont remember where I found this..but i love it! it looks so cozy and clean:)

update of my day!

I finally found us a dresser!!!

also..has anyone else recently been to the rogers salvation army? have you ever seen a cat in there?..just wondering

I found this medium sized beauty in the back of an antique store in rogers..$35! I have big plans for it!!

they are as follows:

1. Paint it either a grey or blue ( like in the picture)

2replace the handles

3.line the drawers

4. put dividers in the drawers

5. stuff it with clothes!!!

whats goin on in my head...

2009-06-29T12:05:00.011-05:00

So I'm at work. I've run out of things to do. so this is wht happens

This where i went for breakfast:

this is what I DIDN'T have when i went to pay:

so..this is what I had for breakfast:

This is what I'm drinking right now:

This is what I wish I was drinking:

This is what I'm probably having for lunch:

This is what I WISH I was having for lunch

This is what I'm having for dinner!!:

This is who I get to hug after dinner :

and this is what I'm going to watch before bed

this is what Mr H. will be doing while i watch that....

Oh, to finally be a Holder

2009-06-24T09:18:00.011-05:00

so im gonna try to write about the wedding and such but my head is killing me so ..if i sound like a retard..im gonna blame it on that:)

so I've made two realizations this morning

Being married= awesome

Being married while in Florida =super fantastically extra awesome (sigh...)

Being in "Real Land"( thanks Jon) not so awesome..

but seriously. I like my husband, hes kinda neat:) It's so fun to hang out with your best friend all the time! I think I could get used to this ;)

wedding stuff.... uhhh.lets go event by event

Rehearsal:
not as awkward as I thought!! I was always afraid that my wedding rehearsal would just be the most horrible awkward experience of my life and then I would be terrified of the actual event. But that afternoon was far from awkward.. I mean yes there were a few moments of ..seriously..but they weren't any fault of ours:) brush it off.... yeah.

I think our lack of awkward and overabundance of awesome- in general- was in large part thanks to Simon. He was freakin awesome. A stuffy officiant just wouldn't do for us. Simon fit perfectly.

Reherasal Dinner:

Oh what can I say. Magical. I loved every minute of it! the food was fantastic, the hosts were incredible and the music..sigh:)

This was my favorite moment of the entire night- oh, Moon River...:) Thanks Christy!!!! that was an amazing gift!!

another favorite is being presented with a GORGEOUS quilt made by Elliots grandmother- its sooo beautiful we were really excited! I dont have pictures of that yet..they're stuck on flikr and sadly I'm not allowed to use flikr while at work..silly coorporates:)

Ceremony:

The ceremony was absolutely perfect. no questions, hands down. from halfway tripping all the way down the aisle, to getting to threaten El with a lightsaber. Just amazing, I had so much fun! it wasn't scary or awkward at all..it was sweet and hillarious and ..us. Simon made it so personal , there was no pressure at all:D

Plus I had the coolest chauffer ever! yeah, its ok to be jealous ;)

in between:

Wedding Dress+Tbird+Sonic Happy Hour + New Husband= total and complete bliss :D

you can laugh if you want, but what else would i want to do after getting married? go to sonic of course! sadly we have no pictures of this..because they were taking with El's phone..which died ...but thats another story :)

Reception:
very fun, very tiring, it was awesome to see everyone- and to see them dancing ;) I however tried to not..dance.. too much..because it scares people..and makes me look quite silly

and the worst thing that happened all day was the cake..it died on the way to the reception so we got a styrofoam cake instead :P no big deal though- i didnt even really eat any of it anyway!! :D

Post party party:

After all the craziness and being driven away in an amazing car by a very hansome chauffer (;)) we ended up back at the house for some leftovers, amazing wine, and family time :) it was really fun and a great way to end the day.

I love my new family!! they're all incredible!

Seriously, our families did so much for us the past few months, we are so grateful- I can't thank them enough for all the hard work and love they put into this!! we're so not worth it ;)

ok back to work..

Love, love

- Cassie Holder

some of my photos (outside at my house)...

2009-05-19T20:59:00.014-05:00

The website is being a little fishy..so these are in no order and get no labels of any kind until i can properly edit the post..silly blog

Prettyness

2009-05-15T12:12:00.009-05:00

recently I've been taking some time to explore the whole photo-taking thing...but of course they're still sitting on the memory cards in the camera..so I'm going to share some beauties from other blogs that I visit :

This is my ABSOLUTE favorite photo from my absolute favorite blog Lobster and Swan I would eat this every day for every meal if i could. yes. every meal

love this as well. from the blog aestheticoutburst

I know I've posted this one before..but i can't help it. it so peaceful!

and this.. oooh this

by Alana Davis

found on Bliss

I could do this all day..sadly I have a job to do :(

enjoy! I'll post my own later..they're no where near these though

Magic

2009-05-05T19:06:00.005-05:00

Ironically, the best song on this album, Magic is just one of the fantastic Ben Folds songs that have been arranged for a cappella groups (not all by Ben btw...he only arranged 2 himself!!). Ben Folds is a genius. Everyone knows this right? well, this time he's absolutely outdone himself. He has gone around to different universities and he has actually recorded these singing groups/choirs singing his songs in ..amazingly gorgeous ways.

I may be partial to this style of music.. after all I have been in choir for...well over half of my life, but i think anyone can appreciate this cd- especially Ben's fans.

back to Magic. I have never EVER ever in my life heard such a hauntingly beautiful arrangement ....not even from the kings singers ( sorry guys..ben wins) the harmony is tight..the voices blend soo well, and the soloists are of course fantastic and perfect for this song. (Mad props to the basses!!)
Its stuff like this that makes me proud to be a musician.

back to the cd in its entirety. it covers multiple styles of a cappella singing, theres even a song that has a "spiritualesque" style..with a little beat boxing..its fantastic!

is this cd perfect? no. are the singers always right- on? of course not. are all the arangement "magical "( yes again with magic....) no.. but as a whole its soooo amazing

(and i dont know who Chris Rishel..but holy CRAP can you arrange!)

LISTEN TO THIS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.benfolds.com/acappella

*disclaimer*-I have not actually read everything about this cd so ...there may in fact be some false statements in this post..I have glanced over the link above..I plan on reading the articles later...but I'm hungry so i dont have time now ;)

Case of the Mondays

2009-05-04T17:07:00.006-05:00

Today has just been..one of those days i guess..

I could really use an escape..

like this..please?

photo by Alana Davis : http://alanakdavis.com/

2009-04-29T11:30:00.006-05:00

You make the moments..they don't make you

Breakfast..

Lunch

Afternoon tea:)

a weekend in pictures

2009-04-28T09:32:00.008-05:00

I really want eggy in a basket. like more than vegitables or chocolate or a basil roma from common grounds.. V for Vendetta ALWAYS makes me long for eggy in a basket..in a bad way...

maybe i'll go home at lunch and make it..

but probably not :P

This weekend we weent antique shopping. it was really fun and oddly relaxing :) I can't wait to finish decorating the apartment :) we're going to make it really clean and creative and personal..I'm really looking forward to it and to see what we come up with!

life is good. love is great. may is BUSY!

i get my hairs cut this week

star trek next week- and mothers day!!

graduation, shower, and a musical the next week

skip a week..

shower,bike ride, ball game, and singing the next week..

plus all the rest of the wedding planning in between!

*sigh* im exhausted..

its all worth it..plus I'm going to see this 70 year old man sing and shake it on stage in a couple of weeks

sappy sappy

2009-04-20T12:12:00.008-05:00

I love ->

'cause..

-You love me for who I am

- you make me laugh with your funny faces

- you have very pretty features (eyes, hair, smile..i could keep going)

- you can take almost any silly problem i have and make sense of it without making me feel dumb

- you kiss my forehead

- you allow my compulsive hugging

- you cook

- you love your puppy

- you're very wise

-you have tremendous faith

-your dont listen to silly music

- you have an enormous heart

-you make me laugh more than anyone else

-you give me happy feelings

- you dont care what other people think

- you are not easily discouraged

- you really listen to me

- you are you

3 years down, lots more to go!

Don't sweat the small stuff!

2009-04-17T09:13:00.005-05:00

This morning I woke up at a reasonable time ( not too reasonable..my hair is still a little wet)

I got to work on time - there was a cookie on my desk- aand I turned on the tv and guess what was on ...Sabrina!!!

Today is a beautiful day full lots of small happy things

Count That Day Lost

If you sit down at set of sun

And count the acts that you have done,

And, counting, find

One self-denying deed, one word

That eased the heart of him who heard,

One glance most kindThat fell like sunshine where it went --

Then you may count that day well spent.

But if, through all the livelong day,

You've cheered no heart, by yea or nay --

If, through it all

You've nothing done that you can trace

That brought the sunshine to one face--

No act most smallThat helped some soul and nothing cost --

Then count that day as worse than lost.

George Eliot (Mary Anne Evans)

Well folks, its monday!

2009-04-13T15:38:00.002-05:00

Ok..I have a confession to make

I..am a "people-watcher"

I know! I can't help it though. I constantly catch myself watching other people..and embarassingly enough..when I dont catch myself, Elliot kindly points it out with a gentle( stop staring!) I don't mean to be rude! Its just..so fascinating to watch another person..see how they react to things and to watch their different mannerisms. I try to think about how they might be feeling..what they might be thinking..which is honestly a little overwhelming.

Think about it...think about all the thoughts going through your head in a single minute..especially if you're anything like me. It's like a mad house up there sometime! and its easy to get caught up in whats going on in your own head, but to put yourself in someone elses shoes..to think about their situations, their life..it may be equally as maddening!

none of that made any sense. I know. Sorry.

my new obsession is reading blogs. Thats like..a free ticket to whats going on with other people. next time you read a blog..a newspaper or magazine article..try thinking about ..what that person might have been thinking as they wrote that..its a good perspective exercise and a good way to empathize with someone.

blah blah blah. rambling is fun

In other news..I have exactly 2 months we do the whole..marriage thing;) life is so crazy ..it seriously moves so fast i can't keep up! I'm learing to go with it though and with the help of my fiance..I'm learning to not take things so seriously..and just..let it fall into place...change is ok..it happens..its not always bad( its usually good!!!) and as long as I keep trying to let go and let God handle things..everything will be awesome. (!!)

and i would just like to say..movies like "my fake fiance" make me sick. Lets promote the idea that getting married for stuff and then getting a divorce is TOTALLY OK!! seriously? How is that ok? I mean..I'm sure they end up falling in love and living happily ever after. not the point. Highly unlikely. very silly. a little insulting.

I thank you God..

2009-04-07T11:11:00.003-05:00

"Create in me a pure heart, O' God and renew a steadfast spirit within me" Psalm 51:10

This is what I read last night

it was exactly what I needed..

I thought I would share

:)

26 Things about me

2009-04-06T12:11:00.005-05:00

1. I love the taste( and smell!) of garlic...on a disturbing level
2.I am getting married..soon (ish)
3.I have a fear of being "normal"
4.I once spent an entire hour singing on stage..by myself( well..except for the accompanist)
5.I hate doing nothing and "wasting time"
6.Ironically i am lazy..
7. I love feeling creative.I'm not very good at it
8. I'm not at all sarcastic. In fact.. I am very often offended by sarcasm .... ...
9. I have a tendancy to majorly freak out over anything and everything. This usually leads to a strong desire to get out of whatever it is. Later I feel very stupid for this behavior..
10. I have over 10 pairs of flip flops. I love them all.
11.I can't make decisions. I almost always second guess the ones I do make
12.I. Love. Coke.
13. I created a webpage when I was 15... a tribute webpage. About Audrey Hepburn. I know (http://audreyhepburnfan0.tripod.com/)
14.I obsess over anything and anything..but only in phases
15.I'm a compulsive Happy Hour frequenter. seriously its bad
16. I have no sense of budgeting or saving
17. My room is pink. I use to hate pink. It's also sparkly. I used to hate sparkly
18. I have a mac
19. My car is 14 years old.
20.If I had the opportunity, I would return to ATU to be a full time music student. forever
22 I am easily inspired but easily brought down
23. I love my alone time.
24. I would rather have broccoli or asparagus than a cupcake or candy. any day
25. If I could be anything ...it would be an actress...but I can't act. or a dancer..but I can't dance
26. I love hugs!

Coorporate Adventures

2009-04-02T16:07:00.003-05:00

Just kidding. There is nothing adventurous about it ;)

last night and today I found myself humming and singing the "sit down, stand up" song. not familiar with the tune? hmm..thats odd.. I thought everyone knew it. Oh wait my bad..every child in rogers (grades k-5) knows this song. yes..thats right, I have an elementary music song stuck in my head..and the sad thing is its not really that bad. To be honest, I miss watching the children get all excited when this song starts to play..all of them laughing and jumping up and down...*sigh* I miss my Tillery days. Sure I came home exhausted most days. Sure I got sick every few weeks. Sure some of the adoreable little children frustrated me to no end. But I miss it. It was challenging, it was interseting, and it was a good use of my time.

SO . maybe teaching wouldn't be that bad. We'll see

Another song stuck my head has been " guy love" if you dont know it..look it up on youtube.

I recently discovered my ideal webpage..

http://listography.com/5666684575

A post a day..

2009-03-31T15:46:00.008-05:00

Last night I enjoyed an entire evening to myself..I cooked an amazing(ish) dinner of sauteed almond zucchini and very green chicken fajitas (recipe's will be provided at the end!!) I even watched a great movie I had never seen before!( Thanks Rosa:D) It was fantastic...but a bit lonely..hmm

That was random..

anyway!

I have decided to post once a day at work..to give me something to look forward to....we'll see how long that lasts.

Tomorrow I am going to something I have never done before..

be.healthy

and in honor of this brave decision, I think I'll make a couple of lists( love my lists!)

I will.

Drink water

Eat fruits and veggies with at least one meal (shouldnt be too hard..)

Take the stairs (two at a time!)

go to bed early

Drink water

I will NOT.

drink coke

drink coffee

eat fast food for lunch

take the elevator for any reason

I know it doesnt seem ambitious..but for someone like myself who makes one or two sonic trips a day, eats fast food for lunch at least 4 time a week and never ever EVER drinks water..( seriously never) its pretty big. we'll see how that goes

in other news..I bought this really cool necklace yesterday

aand ...at approximately 11:10 this morning...*sigh*

my necklace turned into a lovely collection of small gold strands..

oh well. thats what I get for spending money I shouldn't spend.

Recipe's as promised

Sautee'd Zucchini

Fajitas